You haunt me till I forgive
I have hated you for so long
When you died I cried in fear
Or a release of all the fear I had.
I was still afraid you would come back
That you were not really gone.
I thought sometimes that I saw you around corners
Or in a dark Passage.
Always there was fear.
Years have gone by and you never came I knew you were dead.
I knew as an adult what my child’s heart could not,
That you would never hurt me again.
Then you were here out in the road.
Never near my home
Always outside my territory
A territory that I blessed to be free of fear,
A place of peace and safety.
But there you were
In the road
Waiting for me.
You called to me and I came to you
Never close to you I was still afraid.
All you required of me
All you were asking
Something I did not want to give
Something I needed more than you did.
You asked me to forgive
You asked me to let you go
To stop holding on to my hatred and fear
To let you go
For me to be free.
I turned away
But I stopped and said to you
“I forgive you, I am free.”
You never returned
And I am free.
copyright 2014 Leslie Whitcomb